I Miss You
I guess this would be my first blog.
Right now, I have my barkada taking the night off at my house for the next two weeks since they want to hang out and also at the same time, have a ride going to the venue itself. I checked out the messages of my bestfriend because I felt like it and I stumbled upon a conversation between him and his mother. I can’t help but feeling a little bit jealous since they both are really close to each other and the way they talk to each other is like they’re just siblings.
To be honest, I’m going to be serving in a big event this weekend and I really feel bad that I’m being very emotional. But I just really miss my mom. I know she won’t read this anytime soon but I just really want to type it here. In the form of a letter. Hopefully, I’ll show this to her really soon.
How are you? I know that you’re always tired. You had such a tough day taking care again of that same old 6 story building that you’ve been the administrator/ mother/ connecting-all-departments person for the past 8 years. With that, you truly deserve the rest you need right now for the next tough day ahead. You know, I always feel bittersweet about you working in that place. Sometimes, I would forget the fact that you work there because of me. I always feel jealous that whenever I attend the Feast every Sunday, I see my friends with their families while I just attend there alone with ate and the two kids. It’s really a different feeling when you’re not around. I feel so sad that for the past years I don’t really have you on a day-to-day basis and we only have to talk through Skype or any other forms of communication. Ma, I’m sorry if I became rebellious at times especially when you make a decision. I’m sorry for the times I try not to talk to you because I feel at those times that I don’t want to talk to you.
You know, I miss the times when I see you arriving at the house, just in time for you to have dinner with me. You’d always remind me to pray before eating and also the table manners. Then, we would fix up for bed and once we lie down, we talk for a good 45 minutes talking about anything. I miss the times when we just go to random places and have a great time. I miss the times when we laugh about anything. I miss the times when we just be silly being anything. I miss you.
But you know, Ma, I just want to let you know that I am really really proud of you. I am one proud son right here. Yes, I am really really jealous of the other kids who have their mothers with them but I really don’t mind because I know you have such immense love for me. You know, every single time that I get to spend with you, I don’t easily forget about it. You’re the only person I can speak with for a long time without having any dull moments. Your passion in serving the Lord by being part of the BLD Community and by being the administrator of HK BKTC truly inspires me. I love your firm nature because that’s where I am more affirmed of your love. You know, though we are miles apart, I always feel that you’re just right here beside me through the thought that you pray for me, chat with me or even send really random messages that make me teary especially whenever I just see the words, “I Love You.” Ma, I want to say alot but to summarize it, I wanna say I love you.
I know right now, I’m really slacking off in my studies, I’m sorry. But I’ll do better, I want to be like the champion that you are. You are God’s champion for me, you do everything for his greater glory, to keep his light shining and even more than what is expected. Ma, keep being the champion that you are because without you, I won’t be the person of God that I am right now.
Ma, I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you. There’s nothing else I wish more but the best for you. Nothing else I want to say but I LOVE YOU.
I know that in time, we’ll be together under one roof seeing each other on a day to day basis. I really look forward to it and I know that it would be the best place to live on this planet.
I love you ma :)
P.S. I’m sorry if it’s a bit messy, I’m overwhelmed by my feelings. I love you!
i gotta embrace the marble!
i gotta sniff the marble!
i gotta lick the marble!
i gotta wash the marble!
i gotta date the marble!
i gotta BE THE MARBLE!